Busy days and Mondays

Not too much to report today as I had work and a couple big orders to get done. I had a small dinner and was fortunately too busyto think about it much :)

I had this feeling earlier of just being covered (which I am) like a sumo wrestler in - well fat. I want to remember how lousy it feels so I never let myself get back to this.

I so look forward to feeling healthy and lean... and STAYING that way.

I can DO IT

Scarlet is trimmed

I mowed 3 times total today - as well as gave Scarlet a BIG haircut!
Her branches were draggin draggin dragging! (keep in mind she was about
5 feet tall when I planted her - ummm maybe 5 years ago?) Here she is now:

Some morning exercise

Just got done mowing the back 40 -no not 40 acres - probably not even 40/100ths - but since the weeds were about 2 feet high (I just realized yesterday my neighbor who mows my yard hadn't been mowing there) it was quite a task - most areas I had to go over 3 or 4 times till the trampled weeds finally gave in. Also saw mister snake (not even the same snake I saw in my garden in the front yard) and he was in a hurry to get out of the noisy mower's way, fortunately!

It's still muggy even after the few storms last nite, so I worked up one heck of a sweat - now trying to cool off and feeling proud I got it done. Still want to mow under my scarlet curly willow but gonna trim the low branches on that frst so I can get under there!

It's a decent mower - but NOT self propelled. That had to burn some calories :)

The time has come

Weight Watchers didn't work for me. I suck at writing things down.

I am fat. It runs in my family. I have struggled with my weight all my life but have never let it get this bad. Oh I have lots of excuses - depression, loneliness, unemployment. None of them actually are any good. I lost almost 70 pounds back in ... oh I think it was 1998. I was taking Meridia and it worked great for me - I wasn't hungry. I was busy and what I did eat was healthy. But once I went off the meridia I wanted to eat everything in sight.

Since then I have had periods - short or long - where I worked out - maybe even too much, and lost 15, 20 or so pounds. But it was never anything I stuck with for long enough to get to where I needed to be.

And I will admit I love food. I totally cannot understand how someone could not. Part of my problem is if one helping is wonderful - why not have 2. Yup I need portion control. And there are some foods I just need to live without, or only have on very rare occasions - and in moderation.

All so easy to say. Started a new job 6 weeks ago. I go into the building and up the front set of steps and I am winded. The back steps I take quite often during the day and I actually make sure to take them more often than I need to. I don't get too winded from those but I know I should feel better. I don't have enough energy. I do mostly recall what it feels like to feel good. I know it is within my power to lose the weight and feel good.

I have been meaning to start this blog as my means of being accountable to myself. I better do it this time. I am too old to be messing with something that could shorten my life.

I started tonight with about 10 minutes of turbo jam. Yup it is one of those infomercial ones. I have the resources - other workout cd's, an elliptical in the basement. Just need to use them.

Time to get serious.

I have some fish in the freezer and some tomatoes and cucumbers in the fridge. I think there is some chicken in the freezer too. I am gonna do this.

I want to report in on this daily. I need to do SOMEthing every day - maybe not always a lot.
here we go!